JM de Guzman: I lost control-A A +A
Sunday, August 3, 2014
ACTOR JM de Guzman has spoken for the first time on his drug addiction.
While he was at the peak of his showbiz career, rumors surfaced last year that the 25-year-old was taking drugs.
JM admitted that there’s truth to all these rumors.
“Totoo po yun, naging iresponsable ako. Nawala yung disiplina ko and lumaki yung ulo ko. I lost control,” he said in “The Buzz” interview aired Sunday.
“Mentally hindi na ako makapag-isip ng derecho. Hindi ko na mapagkatiwalaan yung sarili kong desisyon. Responsibilidad, nawawala na din sa akin, disiplina, wala na. Emotionally hindi ko na kaya i-control," he added.
JM told his dad and late grandfather to enter him into a rehabilitation center to help fight his addiction.
"Pinasok ako sa rehab. Pinasok ako sa rehab dahil unmanageable na ako. Gumamit ako ng droga. Sinubukan ko yung dapat hindi ko subukan," he said. "Ako na din yung nag-prisinta. Sinabi ko na kailangan ko ng tulong. After two months, nagulat na lang ako."
He also clarified that former girlfriend Jessy Mendiola was never the reason for his vices.
"Sa bisyo ko, sa mga ginawa ko sa sarili ko, walang kinalaman si Jessy. Desisyon ko yun, choices ko yun na ginawa. Yun ang naging rason bakit kami naghiwalay," he said.
JM said he's two months shy from completing a 15-month rehabilitation program and he's keen to maintain this lifelong recovery.
When asked what lesson he has learned from this journey, the actor said he was able to appreciate small things in life.
"Na-appreciate ko yung mga maliliit na bagay, yung mga simpleng bagay na ibinibigay sa akin sa akin ng Diyos. Kasi noon wala akong kinikilala na kahinaan ko, akala ko kaya ko lahat," JM said.
He's also hopeful to return to acting. (Sunnex)