Of maladies and soul whispers-A A +A
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
IT IS indeed very tricky to be human. Not that I know how to be anything else… but seriously, human nature is a very confusing “nature” to be dealing with. They say it is part of being human to be consistently dissatisfied and unhappy about what’s going on with the world. We are constantly trying new things, often challenging ourselves to do greater things – seemingly not reaching a point of satisfaction, being thoroughly in search of something we cannot seem to find.
My health has been failing me these past few months. Is that accurate? I seem to think, "I have been failing my health these past months" is a more apt statement.
Sometime mid-July, I began experiencing difficulty in breathing, persistent cough, early morning colds, midday migraines, weakness and that awful feeling of tiring easily. There was one evening in class while I was lecturing, and I suddenly started having this cough “attack” I could not easily stop, and even though I had taken a water break and tried to breathe deeply I could feel all the oxygen being drained out of my system. I decided to see a specialist, who prescribed Zithromax, which up to now continues to wreak havoc on my digestive system more than a month after I last took it. It did work fine for my cough and I was cough-free for three days or so, and then I started having the same symptoms again.
I hate to admit it but I was in panic when all the symptoms came back after having taken the prescribed meds. I felt awful because I got tired so easily, and my inability to work as much as I wanted to likewise made me very cranky. Admittedly there are days at work when I would grow so weary and impatient and even bored, doing the same (or similar) things over and over for the past seven years, and sometimes I would wish to take a couple of days off (on weekdays, not weekends) just so I could be rejuvenated or something. But after this series of illness and discomfort I have to say work is a much better option.
I am feeling better now, thank heavens, and I got good, normal results in my ECG and 2D-Echo tests. Last thing on the agenda (I hope) is my pulmonary function test which I will be undergoing this week. But through it all, I have learned to take it easy, to keep it cool. I have realized that sometimes a person’s most unforgiving opponent is himself; oftentimes we tend to push ourselves to the limit – not a bad thing altogether, not at all – but we should also learn how to give ourselves more time, more space to breathe. I have learned to choose my battles, to close my eyes in order to defy argument or annoyance, to consciously breathe to let all negativity out.
Indeed, there is unexpected blessing even in difficult situations. You just have to pay closer attention to the whispers of your soul. (firstname.lastname@example.org/www.serendipitycouch.com)
Published in the Sun.Star Baguio newspaper on September 04, 2014.